|| distressed (Don't wanna gooo)
I don't think I've made the formal announcement to my livejournal, so here goes:
I get to see my Rob in about a month!
He's skipping classes to come see me, as they don't get a spring break. But it'll only be for a week, which is half as long as I'd like but as long as I expected. What can I say? I'm spoiled with two week long visits.
But I figure if I can't take paid vacation for this, then I can take that later to go visit him, anyways. So... that means I can spend more time in Missouri and still get paid for it! I love Missouri, even if I was miserable staying with his dad, I just like being in Missouri, I would like to be able to drive and explore it.
Honestly, I'm feeling much better about his and my relationship. He's said he's feeling better, although he's still confused. I'm hoping in the end he'll come out of his confusion realizing he's been in love with me the whole time and he was just freaked out as I'm his first relationship and I was pushing him a bit too hard too soon.
I'm about to take my bridesmaid dress to see if I can get it altered, as it's too big. I'm kinda unhappy with my figure because even if the top is made smaller to fit my boobs, and I hope I can get it altered right as they said no more than two dress sizes down and I think that's exactly what I need as I have an extra five inches up top... so while I want to lose weight for Rob's visit, I don't want to/can't lose too much or else I'll be going naked to Tara's wedding. But the bottom of the dress fits fine, I guess... I just now have no curves, I'm like a big pole. Hopefully it'll look beautiful once altered... I just don't want to go to the store alone to get it done, I'm such a paranoid pansy.
Huh, I got a call from a local number and when I looked it up it's India Shoppe, wtf? As if I've ever been to an India shop. I also got a text message from a local number that knows my name, but I have no clue who it is... so... uhh... if it was you, sorry I didn't respond, I have no clue who you are and I was too lazy to actually respond, haha.
Hi, my name is Sadie and I have a makeup problem.
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I really need to get my hair trimmed, I think I'll wait a couple weeks, though. I am sick of my bangs in my eyes like they are. It has gotten really long, though... although not as long as I'm going for... so I'm still growing it out more. I'll probably chop it all off either the haircut after next, or the one after that.
Also, I think my boobs have gotten bigger. Not that I'm complaining. I mean, I'm noticing I have back-aches more than I used to. At first I thought it was only when I wore my old bras which never gave me back-aches before I moved up to the correct size... but now I'm noticing it even in these bras. I also noticed they're fitting better than they did when I first started wearing them, like my boobs got used to having extra room so they grew into them a bit and actually my bras fit now like I always wished they would, which before I'd look at the models with the bras and be like "that's not fair!" So it's confusing me much, I'll continue to watch this and see if I'm correct. I really don't want to be much bigger than I am now, at a DD, as then I'll be out of balance with my hips. I wasn't even trying in those photos and in some I chose not to post I managed clevage when I wasn't even trying, and wasn't wearing my clevage-enhancing bra. I got some damn nice clevage shots, too. I was shocked.
And now I reaaaally need to go see to getting that dress altered.